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Tuesday, February 02, 2010 11:47 AM
Ah.... The still quietness of a lifeless blog.
How soothing.
How peaceful.
How........
Dead.
Yeah. Yeah. I know. The blogs dead. Is it really a surprise. I have a lot to blog actually. But I guess, it's just the laziness that creeps into me every time I think "Oh! I have to update my blog. It's dead." That thought comes and it crawls into me. At first slowly. Then, all of sudden, it shoots straight up.
Straight up, what? Don't ask. Frankly, you don't want to know what I'm thinking about. :P
In any case, I guess I'll start updating again this month. Maybe in a couple of days. Until then. Au revoir.
Writing A Title Has No Meaning For This Post
Wednesday, December 02, 2009 10:38 AM
As this post has now become my past.. I have hidden it.. If you think you'd want to see what I'm like when I'm a bit pissed.. Read it.. If not.. I urge you not to.. :D
Clicky If You Want To Know More
Why do people not understand me? Okay. I admit that I'm a closed book. I don't go about gallivanting who I am, what I'm like or whatever. But after awhile, people should already KNOW me. If you've only known me for 2 months. That is a different story. But this is more than that.
Is it that people expect me to be there for them 24/7. Whenever you're around, I have to be there talking to you? I have to abandon everything else and be there for YOU? Do I have to shout out to the world, that you're MY world whenever you're around me and nothing else matters? Is that how its suppose to work when you are around me? Do I not talk? Do I make it that you don't exist?
I won't even do that if I were in a relationship. Even if I were in a relationship, I would want some space sometimes. And I'm sure she wants her space too. I mean, I'd want to hang out with my friends at times and she would want to hang out with hers. But here, there is no relationship other than friendship and I'm going out of my mind at times.
The world baffles me sometimes. No, not the world. The people in the world. The world doesn't revolve around anyone. Not you, not me, not even the Queen of England. But people still don't get that.
I'm sorry if I sound angry and what not... ... ... ... Wait, why should I be sorry? I am angry. And before anyone goes around being 'terasa'. This post is mostly "dedicated" to one person. And I am not afraid to say that. I won't however say the name of that person to respect their privacy. But at least I don't go making a post being all general. At least I am saying that this post is to someone and you should know who you are.
I'm not sorry that this post is condescending and mean, but I am partly sorry if this post hurts you. But a part of me is not sorry because your post hurt me. It baffles me for as long as you've known me, you still know nothing about me. All this while I have taken everything in stride. I am not one to snap at my friends just like that because I cherish each one of them deeply. But I have to draw the line somewhere. I'm sorry, but that is just how it is.
The End of Another Year
Tuesday, November 10, 2009 12:25 PM
Climb That Hill.... And Shout At The Top Of Your Lungs.....
FREEDOM!!!!!!!!
Yes.... Another sem has passed.. An I am free... 3 months++ of holiday to look forwards to...
Ever Get That Feeling...
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 7:20 PM
Where you've completed something and feel that its great. Then you get some more info on it and it just makes you think whether it 'ACTUALLY' is great.
Well, it just happened to me and it's making me so frustrated. Maybe not 'SO' frustrated but frustrated enough to think; "Well, whatever. I don't care anymore." But I have to care, bcuz it's one of my assignments. And my first assignment for the subject was horrible. Which means I have to really score on this one.
I did the research for this assignment for like 3 days (Okay, it's not a lot. But it's a 2000 word essay. I'm not writing a thesis). And now, I feel like I'm doing it wrongly just because of a reply e-mail that I got from my tutor. I asked whether what I was doing was right or not and I detailed my plan. He didn't actually say it was correct or not but his explanation made me a little worried. To tell you the truth, I don't really know why.
Probably it's just me being all paronoid and what not (happens every time I do an essay), but it's really bugging me. Especially bcuz I'm suppose to do research for my other 3 essays. I'm half way through one but got stuck cuz I need to borrow a book which is only available on the 3rd (good thing its due on the 9th). I'm doing my City Cultures essay now. But its going horribly. Lol.
The other one... well... I have no idea what's going on with that one bcuz I haven't even chosen a question yet. Can you spell 'S-C-R-E-W-E-D'?
Okay. I'm just ranting and trying to blow off some steam bcuz I'm stuck at home today going through the internet for resources (I woke up late, if not I'd be in the library). That, and I have no one to rant to. Atikah (BABE!), I miss that I can't rant to you about my troubles. It sucks.
Ah well... Better get back to my assignment. Can't wait till all of this is over.
As Per Usual
Monday, October 19, 2009 8:51 AM
As per usual, my blog will go unattended when I go back to Uni. Don't know why though. Probably because I have to much work or maybe I just have nothing to blog about. So, it's most likely the latter.
With 4 assignments to do, 10,000 words in total of all 4 papers might I add, is very consuming.............. Okay. Fine. I haven't started any at all. Well, not a lot at least. The essay questions really sucks. Especially Media n Comm Research cuz its all theoretical questions and its suppose to be a research essay. It sucks...
But I still gotta do it, you know.
Anyway. As per usual, when I'm all stressed out and everything, I am in real need of retail therapy. Unfortunately, I'm not able to do so due to having too many things to do.
On another note, I made spaghetti sauce my mom's way cuz I bought too much meat product and Farisa wants to eat it. So babe, if ur reading this, I've already made some. Whenever you want to come over, just tell me. I made A LOT. So you can take some home too, if you'd like.
On another good note, I've already bought my ticket to go home. It has been finalised and I'm going back on the 13th of November (Friday). I love that I have no exams cuz I can go back early. Though, I'm trying to do Internship at TV3 to get some experience. Hopefully, I'll get it. If I do, it means I have to work. Oh well.
I should get back to doing my assignments. And I have a screening to go to later. The only reason I'm going to it is cuz I'm thinking of doing the essay question related to this screening. I'll try to update as much as possible. Haha.
P.S. Becky... I can beat your score on Spot The Diff easily... I just don't have the time to do it... Haha..
Take Me For What I Am, Who I Was Meant To Be
Thursday, September 17, 2009 6:49 PM
Okay.. So my title is a song.. Which I am totally stuck at right now.. It's a song from Rent, of course.. I just love it..
Anyway.. I'm just updating on myself.. Haha.. Went shopping just now for about 3 or 4 hours or so... I didn't buy much cuz I plan on 'REALLY' shopping at the end of sem.. The only thing I had planned to buy was a small luggage/carry-on bag.. So I set out for that..
And as I was walking around in Myer... I saw a jacket that I saw in the catalouge which I fell in love with... So............ What was I to do?? I bought it of course... Hahaha.. Great... Now I have tons of jackets... I think I have like 5 now including the new one and a hoodie... By the end of the year... There's a probabilty that the number is gonna get larger...
Anyway, my final update will be.... I'M GOING HOME TOMORROW!!!!! WOOOO!!!!! Hehe... But... B4 2morrow can come... I need to continue cleaning my room.... So.... I'll see u guyz in M'sia... Hehe.. Chiaozz...
Five Hundred Twenty Five Thousand Six Hundred Minutes
Saturday, September 12, 2009 10:54 AM
Just watched Rent (Movie that is) on my PC... I wish I could go and watch the musical.. But how? Haha.. If I could, I would go to Broadway and West End just to watch musicals.. Seriously.. I would be in New York or London and spend my time just watching musicals... Of course, I have to have a lot of money... And I mean A LOT of money.. Haha.. Hell, if I could, I want to be in musicals.. Just never had the chance... Haha.. Big dreams huh...
If you haven't noticed... I'm a BIG MUSICAL FAN.... Haha..
Anyway, I cried watching Rent.. I'm a total crybaby... Every time I watch Rent, I'd cry... There was this one time I watched Rent on the plane.. And I cried... Haha.. It was a good thing that my mom was actually sleeping.. If not I'd get the whole, "Why are you crying?" or "What's your problem?" things... Hahaha...
Okay... Drifting away from me being a crybaby... I'm going home in a week... For Raya.... WOO!!! To tell u the truth, I'm more happy to be able to celebrate Raya with my family rather than actually going home.. Does that make sense? Haha..
Right now, I wanna go shopping... I WANNA GO SHOPPING!!! But I don't have the time... Right now, I have cold.. Runny nose and all.. I hate it... Hopefully, I can go out tomorrow... If not, I'm gonna skip my lecture on Tuesday.. And go out... I really need retail therapy... But then, I have a presentation for Wednesday... Ugh... I don't even know what I'm going to present.. I have to do the readings and everything.. Better start.. At least I don't have to think about it until Wed...
Well.. That's about it... I should really start on my readings for the presentation.. So I can start preparing it.. So... Here goes...
Warning: Post is due to boredom
Saturday, August 29, 2009 1:04 PM
You have been warned. This post is made due to boredom.
So, I'm suppose to do my assignments. It's due on Friday. And there's a lot to do. But I just can't do it. It's hard and sucky. So....... I got bored and after taking my shower, I thought I'd do my hair. Well, one do at least. Haha. I just did it differently. Change my putting to the other side and then straightened it.
Then, I became all solo-cam-whoring. Haha. Took a couple pictures of it and it doesn't look so bad. If it was a little longer, styled it with wax or wateva and I had black make-up on, I could really pass off as emo. Though, I may have to cut some fat out of my face. Hahaha.
I'll post the pics at the end.
Speaking of hair, I'm actually thinking of cutting my hair short. And when I say short, I mean SHORT. Something like, clipper/razor cut on the side. Something like Chad Allen or Nick Lachey. Or Ewan McGregor or Josh Duhamel style. Is that a little too much? I just want a new hairstyle cuz I'm really hating this style that I've had for I don't know how many years already. But I'm not gonna do it anytime soon. I'll get the cut at the end of the year cuz then I'll have some time to get into the hair before coming back to Melbourne.
Anyway, here's the pics of me trying out some stupid hair style. Haha. You've been warned. This pics are due to boredom. Haha.
It Sucks When You Can't Shop
Saturday, August 08, 2009 7:44 PM
You know how sometimes u get this sudden craving of something? Well, today is one of those days for me...
I have this sudden urge for a waffle... And knowing me, liking to cook and such, I wanna make the waffles, not buy them... But I don't have a waffle maker... Should I buy one? Haha... Like I've got loads of money la... But I seriously want a waffle maker... Haha... Right now, I'm wondering whether I want the waffles or the waffle maker... I have a feeling it's probably the latter...
Talking about spending... I went out with Mae-Yee, a college mate and we ended up in DFO after lunch at Crown... Neither of us could shop and we were a bit off cuz we couldn't shop... I seriously need to go shopping... I think I'm gonna buy like Straight Cut jeans or probably try some Skinny jeans... I already told Mae that she can have a lot of fun laughing at me trying those on.. Haha..
Anyway, just thought that saying my cravings can help me... Ummm... Not have it anymore? Oh well... I'll probably get one later on... Don't know when though... Hahaha...
Short Little Update
Thursday, July 30, 2009 9:21 AM
So, I haven't updated in awhile.. Seriously, I wanted to update on a lot of things.. Like, Rome... Harry Potter... Returning to Melbourne... And some other stuff that I now can't remember.. But... As per usual... The Lazy Bug came crawling up my pant-leg and bit me.. Thus, close to a month of nothingness.. That and I don't have a stable connection till the end of July.. I'm using one of those mobile broadband thingys which kinda sucks btw.. Mostly cuz the connection sucks.. And I get dc-ed sometimes..
So anyway, I'm back in Melbourne.. For a week now.. Haha.. Classes started on Monday and my timetable sucks.. One lecture on Monday (which starts at 4.15 btw), one lecture on Tuesday, Wednesday is a full day, and 3 tutes on Thursday.. U would think that Wednesday is my worst day.. Well, u could not be more wrong.. Thursday is my worst day.. Cuz I got 3 tutes in one day, I've gotta get a lot of reading done for that day... Not to mention, most subjects have at least 3 essential readings that has to be done.. Oh well, the price of a good education, right?
Well, I gotta get going.. I got a tute at 4.15.. My other 2 tutes for the day starts in week 2.. Haha.. So, I gotta get through my reading for that sub.. Will update more when I get my home internet connection..
I Can Never Think Of A Good Title
Sunday, July 05, 2009 9:32 AM
Seriously, I can never think of a good title.. Well.. I think, every time I post something.. There's like bits and pieces from everything that has happened so far.. Anyway, I'm gonna start of this post with my Genting Trip......... Which was last Tuesday till Thursday.. Haha.. It was the first every 'Cuzin's Trip'.. And it was wicked awesome..
On the first day, we left on the 12 o'clock bus.. We ended up in Genting at 1.30.. Checked in, left our bags in the room and went off to see what we can do.. We (well, they) decided to watch a Transformers.. Since I've already seen it.. I just thought, "Okay.. Wateva.".. We bought the premier (RM18) seats cuz the movie was long.. Let me tell you, it still great even though its the second time you're watching it.. Oh! Before the movie, we went karaoke-ing.. I had a sore-throat after the whole ordeal of screaming too much.. Well, what would you get when u start singing 'One Sweet Day' and 'Thank God I Found You' in a row? Both Mariah Carey songs for those who don't know..
After them movie, we went back to our room and played Twister.. There's pics.. But it's in Shida's camera.. So, gotta wait to get the pics.. After the pain-aching, gut-buster-laughing of the Twister game, we went mellow and played Cluedo.. So far, only my Cuzin, Faiza (Ee) and me have won in the game.. Haha..
The second day was filled with Theme Park activities... Indoor and outdoor... We wanted to do the outdoor twice.. Once in the morning then in the evening.. But it started raining when we were going on a ride in the evening and that plan was scratched.. So, we went indoors.. Rode some rides and all that.. My cuzin Nurul didn't wanna go on the Space Shot.. Penakut btul.. Apa la.. Dah la tak pernah naik.. Anyway, when the day ended, we were all too tired to do anything.. I think I was the first one to fall asleep..
Third day was nothing much.. Cam-whoring... Eating.... Walk-here and there... Nothing much.. Cacme back down around 4.30.. Then went home..
Oh! That night when we came home.. We went out karaoke-ing again.. Haha.. We're like addicted.. I wanted to sing 'Alone' by Heart but didn't have the time.. So, another time.. I gotta practice the song first.. It's like totally hard.. Well, anyway... That's about my update.. I'll post some pics later on.. Or, just head over to my Fb account.. Haha.. Other updates on my life will come later.. Cheers~
Better Late Than Never
Saturday, June 27, 2009 11:21 PM
Okay.. So, this post was suppose to come on Friday or yesterday.. But.. Lay-z-ness got in the way.. And all that comes after, is history.. Haha..
In any case, I watched Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen on Thursday.. It was like a day after I got back.. And I went out to watch a movie.. Gotta thank Adilah for thinking of me for the extra ticket.. The movie was 'wicked-awesome'.. Seriously.. I'm not gonna say anything, cuz a lot of ppl haven't watch it yet.. BUT..... It was totally awesome...
And there's something I gotta disagree with Adilah.. I think the 'funny-idiotic' one-liners were great.. It added small comic-reliefs to all the 'going-ons' in the movie.. If you haven't watch it, go out and try to get tickets.. You won't regret it..
Okay.. On another note, I spent the whole of Friday grocery shopping and marinating stuff for an office BBQ dinner thing on Sunday (tomorrow).. And I spent the whole of Saturday grocery shopping and making dessert.. So, now am very tired and... Well.. Okay, just tired i guess.. I made Creme Caramel.. And I'm making another dessert tomorrow which is Tiramisu Parfait.. I need to go out again tomorrow cuz I'm still laking some ingredients..
So, my first 4 days back and I'm already running around like crazy and VERY tired.. Oh.. Wait.. I forgot to say.. I'M BACK HOME!!! Haha.. Dammit.. I'm really slow.. Ah well.. I just wanna sleep right now..
Azfar or Azzy
